vanessa week 13

for college, all I want is to go somewhere that I'm happy. Preferably very far away, but if I have to stay in the Northeast I will. I don't want to go to Middlesex, I don't want to have to live alone with my dad for an extra two years. I don't want to be surrounded by people who messed up in high school, and most of all I don't want to be stuck here without everyone I love. My dad wants to force me to go to Middlesex because of "finances" while he has an untouched trust fund created for the sole purpose of sending my sisters and I to college by my grandparents, he just "doesn't want to use it". It's so infuriating having to live with someone who has no regard for you happiness or mental health, and is so incredibly selfish and self serving. He's blatantly favored my sisters over me for our entire lives, and now it's really picked up. Last year when my sister was looking at colleges, he specifically told her to not even THINK about the money. To go wherever she felt happiest without any regard to the tuition cost. Why am I denied that same decency? Why am I not enough for him?